ZEBEDEE
Zebedee, Zebedee tell me we’re through
Please make me spend my days waiting for you
Zebedee, Zebedee can’t you lament for the artifice
You made of this
Strangling our ocean before it’s begun
You’ve had one too many lovers
Calamity you’ve made of me
What savage dance romance
You loved me Zebedee
I loved you too
We thought this would last forever
How is it that there was a time when I would not be the one who cried
Now I’d do anything to hold your heart in mine
I wish that I was the only one to keep it together
The only one who could stomach this kiss from you
But there are the others who with me can’t believe it don’t see
Should I understand you’re a man
How can I be any other than
Your life your wife
The only soul who ever holds you just the way you are
Just the way you are
Just the way you are
Zebedee, Zebedee what shall we do
The crying time is through
You held me as we walked through the stars
Ferocity was made of this time together
One perfect lover’s gone
Now there’s nothing to say to make us stay together
Doesn’t matter anymore
It doesn’t matter now
It doesn’t matter
You loved me Zebedee
I loved you too
How could we ever have known that it would end like this
Right from the moment of our very first kiss
While I saw your eyes in mine
Our hands intertwined
As we stood along the boulevard not every foreseeing our borrowed time
That we would live in the rest of our lives together
Until that forever moment came and went
To the end of the line you were mine
Or so I thought and now I’m not with anyone
Who you’ve become must be awfully lonely
Can’t you see that it’s me who is the only soul
Who ever holds you just the way you are
Just the way you are
Just the way you are
TAKE ME AWAY
You who buried all my shame
Take these burdens You who
Who knew there’d be so much pain
All these curses You knew
Take this heartache from me
Sail these flames out to sea
Take me away
Away
Take me away away
From here
I fear
I’ve swung the long way
From you
So far
This heart
Won’t regret the deeds done to
Take this heartache from me
la la la la la la
Its clear
only forgetting you
my dear
the stars
no more ours
echos ring
in my ear
BRAVEST NAME
I withstood the shaking of my heart
Taking apart of everything I’ve ever known
Don’t be scared I know I’m catching fire
Don’t be scared I know I’m catching fire
Sifting heirlooms as you will
Against my will
I’m no longer terrified
Don’t be scared I know I’m catching fire
Rusted under in unrest
You undress
One more hour glass is breaking
Don’t be scared I know I’m catching fire
Oh your name is the bravest name
I’ve ever known
Oh your name is the bravest bravest name
Oh whoa
Oh your name my perfect flame
And I’m not alone
Oh your name is the bravest bravest name
Ohhhhhh
There’s only losing with you
Sorry clouded views
Pounding cracks foundation
Don’t be scared I know I’m catching fire
I will fall you will fly
The only rescue never arrives
Don’t be scared I know I’m catching fire
Burn up the dark
Flames leaping higher
Consume these lies
Melt This Desire
Don’t be scared I know I’m catching fire…
JACKSON
Welcome Jackson to this life
I don’t know I don’t know
If you will be forgotten
And I hope that in this life
You will oh you will find
The one to take your hand in theirs
Jackson in this life
The fields go dry the tide pulls you below
Oh Jackson in this life
The love will come the love will go
Oh Jackson
And Jackson in this life
The earth you tread on speaks like broken glass
And Jackson when you rise
Don’t be long smile upon
Those without another
Then you will discover something
Other than this
Oh mind your brother
Keep him with a simple kiss
Could today could tomorrow
Be the first day
Be the last day of your life
Could today could tomorrow
Be the first day
Be the last day of your life
Could today could tomorrow
Be the first day
Be the last day of your life
And Jackson may you see
Who it is you’re not
And who it is you are meant to be
Jackson just believe
There’s goodness for you please hold onto this
Call often maddens the heart
Find joy where sorrow hopes to lie
And cling to wisdom
She will listen for you always
The wind screams
The trees fall down around you
Who knows anymore
Than you know anymore
Welcome Jackson to this life
I don’t know
I don’t know
If you will be forgotten
PRIVATE PATTERSON
6000 miles away
10 years old to the very day
We talked for hours
Your writing was just like mine
Made me feel like you weren’t gone
Pulled my heart to the surface
Private Patterson you came to my room
Private Patterson I’ll dance on your tomb
Private Patterson your station wagon
Private Patterson I never saw you again
I wore your camel colored hat
You cinched it around my neck
I got sick in the basement
Cried when he tore your letters
All that pink confetti
Who was on the phone
All the dreams that were crippled
All the seams that were ripped up
From a little life
From a little life
Could it be just that simple
What is seen are the fistfuls
Of what’s left inside
So little left inside
Private Patterson
Slow burning fire
Here I am all ash and ember
But you never learned
That beauty comes from
Fragile things made out of rubble
Private Patterson
I see
You wrote to wrong me
Now you know
I didn’t succumb to your schemes
RETURN THIS LOVE
Sparks are flying behind my house
Seamus is hammering another iron gate
Grandmother’s dying I’ll press her blouse
The one with colored shapes (to my face) and breathe her in
The gap in my teeth looks just like hers
Even when I’m hoping that we are not of relation
She’s looking skyward I hold her purse
Only some almonds and a silver dollar are inside
Who am I
I am so despicable
Who am I
I’ll return this love to you
It’s 6am half the bed is cold
Her eyes are fluttering in the half light
Her child body is drowning in an aquamarine nightgown
It looks like a burial shroud
My stomach’s burning her mind has found
A place to hold its pace
I’ll never know what’s left inside
All I wish is to hear the sound
Of when she strongly held me above her head and saaaang
There’s 3 dried droplets of blood
From the crook of her arm
Down to her ring finger
And as she’s being warmed by the sun
I hastily place my hand over her mouth
PHANTOM
I cupped your face as you sank into the water
Sank into the water so deep
I can’t escape how it didn’t even matter
Watching me as you disappeared
Phantom keep haunting me
Dirt under your nails it always made me wonder
Now I see you’re digging your grave
These splintered bones would cut what pulls you under
Free you from what’s choking your way
Phantom keep haunting me
I’ll sleep in your grave
Go dance, go dance
I’ll sleep in your grave
Go dance, I’ll sleep in your grave
I’ll forsake you but I’ll never leave you
I can’t find you but that doesn’t mean you’re lost
Phantom keep haunting me
SNARES
V1
Floating there
Next to the riverbank
Glassy eyes
Why did you fly from this
CH
Why did you fly from this
I don’t know I don’t know
Why did you fly from this
I don’t know I don’t know
Why did you fly from this
CH
Did you think you were
the only one who ever felt this way
Did you think you were
the only one to breathe cold shadow
Did you think you were
the only one who never got away with this
Did you think of anyone other than you
I would’ve told you I would’ve held you tight
I would’ve kissed you on the mouth
I would’ve kissed you on the eyes
I would’ve told you I would’ve held you tight
I would’ve kissed you on the mouth
I would’ve kissed you
Keep me from traps they have set for me
snares they have laid for me
Keep me from traps they have set for me
snares they have laid for me
I would’ve told you I would’ve held you
I would’ve kissed you I would’ve loved you
I will always hold you
I will always hold you
I will always hold you
in my heart